Hi friends.
It’s 6:37 am central standard time, the forever-summer heat broke overnight, and I’m sitting here with a hot healing delicious coffee in a mug Angelina brought with her as a gift when she stayed with my family after Brandon died. I woke up Too Early this morning, the clock reading 3-something. It happens! I try to keep in mind that when I’m moving through the world on too little sleep I’m working with an unusual weird perspective and will have inventive thoughts I might not otherwise. SHRUG EMOJI.
Here’s our October playlist, reminder to follow it if you’re into it because I add songs as the month goes on (the Sept. one got wild as weeds):
In September, mostly therapy and music
(The elevator closing is me literally traveling to the fourth floor in an ancient slow vessel within a crumbling building to see my therapist, not a metaphor)
Listening to Yumi Sakugawa has changed my life on the regular
Any time I’ve paid attention to the things Yumi creates, any time I’ve paid money to see/hear/experience/read more of it, any time I’ve sought out her words it’s benefited me thirtyfold. On Sunday I participated in her webinar HOW TO MANIFEST YOUR CREATIVE DESIRES INTO REALITY, which was two hours of guided meditation, free writing, and intention-setting.
By the end I’d cried several times, hugged myself a bunch, forgiven myself for accusations I didn’t even know I was holding against myself, and invented a new morning routine to nurture my creative practice, and I’m not even cringing while writing phrases like creative practice, so, wow, I can’t say enough, highly recommend, still floating.
Yumi should absolutely be doing this for good money as often as she wants, IMO, so sign up for her next webinar, AND I think she’d be ok with me sharing her brief recap from the creative desires workshop:
To recap on things you should do every day 1: MEDITATE 15-20 minutes 2. MORNING PAGES (three pages stream of conscious free-writing pen to paper in notebook) and 3. SOME DAILY INTENTIONAL CONTAINER OF TIME THAT IS QUANTITY OVER QUALITY (example: make one drawing, write three pages, work on novel for 30 minutes)
Speaking of genre-busting art that screws off the top off yr skull
Last month I saw ✨H O M E T O W N H E R O✨ Sasha Velour’s live drag/lip-sync/video projection/art/monologue/theatre!!/omg show Smoke & Mirrors:
I… I… I…
One woman’s attempt at casual conversation
Last weekend while drinking a Fist City after the C-U Pride parade with m’buds, I posed a lighthearted question to the group of WHAT WE FACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT JESUS CHRIST and shockingly, nobody really wanted to engage me on this except Matt, hi Matt!!, who generously mentioned the book Zealot by Rena Aslan, which I am now reading and which, if you speak to me for 30 seconds or more, you’ve probably already heard about (the other day Kaitlin was like “Linds what was the name of that book again??” and before I could eagerly answer she said JUST KIDDING because… it was a joke about how much I mention the book, oooopsie doodle, PS IT IS CALLED ZEALOT THE LIFE AND TIMES OF JESUS OF NAZARETH).
I’m really very into books that give graspable human context for historical events, and I feel hungry for learning, and I’m pissed that I went to Sunday School for 10+ years and yet never learned like… any rounded information about the Bible being written or the cities and hamlets and towns and gatherings or people mentioned in it. Anyway, in case you, too, are into books about Jesus of Nazareth (not actually of Bethlehem!! spoiler!) that were written in 2013, I’m sure it’s sitting at your local library waiting for you, unless you live in Urbana, IL, in which case I have it for the next several weeks and you’ll just have to wait.
The sun goes down, another dreamless night
Larry and I are taking off tomorrow and seeing Orville Peck in STL and every time we’re alone one of us says I can’t wait until Orville weekend and it’s true.
The sun’s up now, and if you look straight up at the sky from my basement office windows you can see how fast the wind’s blowing, clouds moving, fall coming in. Change change change. Nature is change god is change.
I love you,
Lindsey